ah yeah

it's strange, I don't understand him at all sometimes, but love him a little bit more, it's tough when someone you love is a little lost, maybe anxious, maybe sad.....
And there's nothing you can do.

Frustration comes to mind, on both sides, my frustration because I can't make it better, his, because he does'nt know why, doesn't know how to not be sad or mad or quiet or even cross with me about it.

This has been a good week, I hope there are many more. We do ok :) we do more than ok, no one said it was going to be easy.

When you are one you live for you, you love for you, you think for you, even keel, steady, dependable.

But you never feel quite the same high as when you have someone to share it with, someone to love, someone to dream with.

I'll take every one of the lows for the high.

love you mister.

I have started to set myself little interimal goals, silly little tasks, bring in my lunch to work for the week, do a su doku every day, learn a new song etc....

I like it though it's orderly, makes me feel like I'm am broadening something, what happens when you stop having definible goals? or is that the point? do you not let that happen?

Maybe that's the key!

A very good friend has an interview tomorrow, I will be sorry to see her go, but it will be a good opportunity for her. Monday I leaped into action, proactively doing things I had in my to do pile for quite sometime now. I felt good, energised. I need to regain that energy today.

is there something else I should be doing? am I destined for anything?
how do you know.

I have some thinking to do, as I have to do every day.

Discover

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbour. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.

I really like this Mark Twain quote. It's funny, I use to have it on the bottom of my cv, when I was a little younger, starting out almost, and I remember taking it off for space saving purposes.

We I'll like to restore it to the full glory of a very special place in my mind and heart.

Sometimes it nice to forget, and then remember.

Happy New Year!

ok....

here goes

short term goals
1. declutter wardrobe
2. rearrange bedroom
3. arrange sheet music
4. sort out desk
5. order T-shirts
6. learn one new song a week
7. start a cookery notebook
8. start to play piano

medium term goals
1. exercise
2. shape up
3. good skin (doing well :))
4. buy ibook!