Motivation

Some times I lack it, sometimes I don't always preform to my best, hmmmmmmmm this annoys me somewhat, actually it really gets on my nerves.

So what to do!

See, I like my job and i'm good at it, but I get bored, and don't want to do it sometimes. So I need motivation. I suppose I want to get going on a few things as well, I want a shiny ibook and a digital camera these are my goals for the next few months. Monetarily only - I have other stuff to do, but just want to get my act together a little. I suppose I try and quantify why I go to work every day.....................

I am going on hols to the states as well so lots of exciting things planned.

Ok so I am asking what else?

Singing for the national council of the blind tonight (should be fun) and then meeting up with some old friends maybe they will shed some light on my lack of motivation,

Also christmas is coming, and I havent finished my shopping this may also be getting me down, not in a serious way just in a " I'm slightly frustrated way"

well i have my lil bro sorted, ideas for mam dad and most of P's pressie.

ok things are in good shape, roll on the week.

Happy Friday

Sleepy face! :)

oh well. dosy today, but happy enough. Looking forward to having some fish and chips for lunch!

feel a little under the weather unfortunately, P has given me his cold I think, damn! but will battle onwards, 23 days til christmas or something! have to get my skates on for christmas shopping and everything, want to get my hair done as well.

On a completely seperate tone:

was really preoccupied with the texas death penalty website the other day, spend alot of the after noon reading about the 9 women who are on death row.

Its very disturbing, I just don't understand how anyone can justify the taking of anothers life, no matter what they have done. How are you any better than they are?

I'm getting restless

in the evening times.................. the last week and a bit have been quiet, which highlights the fact even more that I want to do something.......... I sick of watching nothing on telly, I have to find a project etc.

Now its not as if I dont have extra curicular stuff going on, I sing twice a week, but I need some thing else to sink my teeth into, I don't think its a set time type of thing, for example going to yoga once a week, I think I want to work on something towards a goal, maybe some charity stuff, I don't know......

Any ideas?

today - ramblings

Hello,

hmmm, the world of blogs! I have been reading one blog in particular over the last few days and it strikes me as to how addictive, delving into someones thoughts are. Also I have discovered that I like a blog of someones everyday life, everyday thoughts everyday ramblings. Something with a taste of reality.

I am in work, as always wondering if work is the way I will spend the rest of my life and when to decide whether I like doing it or not, or is it just routine kicking in and my unwillingness to cooperate?

Maybe :)

I was at home for the weekend, one of our heifers died after giving birth to her first calf unfortunately, :( poor mam and daddy were up all night, she died of shock in the end the vet said. So their last few days have been filled with surrogate mum hunting, daddy bought a cow at the mart last night. I hope it goes ok.

I have an urge to cook something really wholesome tonight, and to tidy and wash, have my appartment shiny, I will take this rare feeling of domesticity with two hands and use it :)

Cosy face.

Yesterday i had a lovely evening with Paul, we went to a soinheim musical in draiocht, assassins, however it hasn't aged well since it was written and its quite choppy and dramatic, but slightly contradictory. None the less we had a lovely lovely evening :)

tadaaaaaaa

heyhey,

got a raise today! still not enough oh well happy enough in good form. and a new title QA auditor with business development roles. :)

nice weekend, a friend came down to stay for the night, so lots of dancing eating and drinking ensued :)

saturday went to see the constant gardener - really enjoyed it.

sunday declan o rourke in the olympia, and he really does look a bit like shrek! in a cute way though. Marry the sea was the highlight, love Gallieo too. Some of his newer upbeat stuff loses the charm of his voice, but a lovely evening in all.

and got a new ipod mini! apple replaced mine because of the battery losing charge.

not a bad few days :)

i love my new house :)

I just do, location is fantastic, so close to town, oh look there it is!
it's cosy but spacious and my roommate is lovely. :) so happy face.

Happy today, totally slept in, my human alarm clock was at home in his own house,
so I happily dozed on for another hour after I should have, Oh well.

Am being super productive to day though so the extra sleep served me well
, SOP update that, analytical method this.

Talk of a return to DC is brewing! I'm very excited!

Joyful Joyful

great song! you may be familar with it from Sister Act two, we are learning it to open a charity gig in a few weeks.

Got a text from Africa yesterday, so he arrived safe and well :) and was off swimming in the lovely weather, damn him! hey mister *waves*

K is safe and sound in NZ after a crazy journey.

Yesterday I wasn't feeling very well. wasn't quite sure why, well my head was sore, I felt as if someone was holding my head with their fingers, pressure on different spots all over my head. It lasted all day and only stopped near bed time. I think I was feeling a bit down, saying goodbye and having a world wind weekend migrating to a dull ache basically.

Realisation hit this morning, time to put my skates back on and get on with things , there's lots of me to do right here.

Happy Birthday button.

Under my door

"In the infinity of life where I am, all is perfect, whole and complete. The past has no power over me, because I am willing to learn and to change. I see the past as necessary to bring me to where I am today. I am thrilled to be in the middle of this adventure, for I know I will never go through this particular experience again. I am willing to set myself free. All is well in my world!"

A very special friend went away yesterday for a while, although I had said goodbye on saturday I got home last night to find it, underneath my door, he must have called by late. thank you mister :)

the last week or so

I got a promotion :) so yey! am happy about that, it seems my inititate on several projects has been noticed. I am waiting to receive my terms and conditions but fingers crossed it will be a little bonus.

heading into the bank holiday weekend, so looking forward to that.

Busy evening ahead, my sisters birthday, K's going away party and then roll on the weekend.

And halloween! what will I dress up as? any ideas?

Lovely Weekend

Really fun, friday night out for dinner, 101 Talbot st, highly recommend it, fab food, very relaxed. And then on to a piano bar for some cheesiness supplied by feather boa, rabbit ear wearing piano players :)

And then on to Kilkenny for the weekend, gorgeous guest house, yummy food, strolls, drinks, a visit to the castle. followed by a cracking sing to finish the week, with some old faces and not so old faces.

All moved in, love my new location. love my new bed :)

The time is flying can't believe it's half way through October already.

yesterday

Had the most awful day yesterday at work, I'm not going to talk about it just makes me angry, as usual a complete and utter breakdown of communication causes me to feel so utterly disheartened. Thankfully I decided to talk to management about it, and the situation is better.
Sometimes I feel as if I am not using my strenghts and abilities to the fullest here. I'm just not sure my discipline is actually me, so I'm just going to have to figure it out.

One of the guys at work is in his second go of chemo, he is an absolutely remarkable guy, I'm not sure I would be quite as strong as he is. He was in yesterday and he met me out side just after I had been told, "actually scrap that 3 months of work you have been working on" and he said "I have never seen you angry before" and it was true. Later he came up to me and told me he was glad I was smiling again, sometimes prespective helps. Thanks buddy.

Oh and a special hello to P, the poor fella is very disappointed, no World Cup for Ireland :(

It's cold today!

Tuesday morning, brrrrrr, cold and wet, it's wintery!

Starting to move my things tonight :) looking forward to being settled. want to get some new lovely sheets for my bed, this evening and some new pillows :)

yummy :)

Lots to do in work, lots of protocols to write. Mildly flirting with the idea of applying for a different job, the difference in money is the attractive factor. hmmmm will think about it today :)

All steam ahead for L's fundraiser! should be fun, am mildly concerned about the quality of the content but will have to see. Ah it's for a great cause, was just talking to him before work, he has lady trouble as usual, whats new ;p and he's having difficultly mailing me the graphics :)

P is in work, settling back in from being away I think and just letting it all sink in. Will call over to my lil sis later. Looking forward to seeing her.

Was on the bus this morning beside a lil fella who was talking about his 1st maths homework, miss my lil bro, he's the same age.

Count your blessings - my aim for today.

Yawwwwnnnnnn

It's just after 2.30 and I'm sleepy already. And it's only Monday!

So thoughts for the day, motivation creeping back in slowly, starting to get some work done, last week wasn't feeling very productive as I was under the weather and a lil fed up about it.
So this week, positivity is the name of the game.

last night I listened to an inspiring lady talk about how giving a little can make you life so full. How by just being around, you can help some people get their sad out. How a tiny personal sacrifice can give some one else the world. It's good to be reminded.

I have lots to do.

He's home

So lovely to have him home, it's astounding how much you miss someone and then don't actually realise it until they are back, and beside you again.

So it was a lovely weekend, nice and relaxing, saturday up early to go to the Airport and then a lazy day of dinner and watching the match and then a friends birthday party. Sunday alot of the same, sunday lunch and then on to a bit of singing.

Found somewhere new to live, thank goodness, have been looking for ages! so will move over the next few days.

Monday morning a lil tired, but happy, up for the day ahead. :)

Lots to do.

Thank Crunchie

It's almost home time and I am glad :) It's been a busy week coupled with being a little bit sick so looking forward to the weekend.

There are other reasons too, He's coming home, my boy, he has been away with work for a month and it was all very strange, two weeks in london, with lots of contact, calls emails msn, he had access in his hotel etc. Found the first week of it very very difficult, adaptation to change, I suppose, simply missing someone, someone who you love :) But you get there and it is amazing how you can come to deal with it. The last two weeks he has been in the states and because of the time difference and the lack of internet access at the course he was doing, communication was limited but it was ok. Surprisingly ok. I'm glad, it goes to show, it is possible to be apart.

We were almost faced with this decision before, he almost went away on a program for a year, but he changed his mind, I remember at the time being ok about it, but very practical, we are young we have to take these opportunities, but everytime I thought about saying goodbye in the airport...........aaaah break my lil heart.

I'm happy I was able to stay strong, so as to not influence his decision, I am happy that he was able to make the right decision for him, that's very important to me. I am happy he's not far away.

Looking forward to seeing him in the airport tomorrow. :)

My first post

Damn it! I finally caved in, I've surcome , I've lost my eternal arguements with countless friends, I'm following the millions, I'm now a blogger!aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh :)

Ok maybe, tis a little dramatic, but I'm happy to say hello.

Today is an interesting day, I am a little under the weather, have had the snuffles for quite a few days now, but that's ok.

I am in work, in an environment I enjoy, something that I am qualified and competent at, but some how my conscience reminds me that maybe there is something else out there for me. I am content with this though and I have time to find it.

I think I am drawn to start a blog today because two people very close to my heart are going away for a while independent of each other and for the moment, cyber space is where I will meet them and give them a hug, and ask how their day was, and smile as they follow their dreams.